Santa Fe is unlike anything we have experienced before. You could classify it as urban even though most people live on dirt roads. You could classify it as western even though the most popular stores are Trader Joe's and Whole Foods. And then there are the people....they are interesting and strange and "Manhattanites" (not literally) living in the dessert. Here are some examples to help you understand.
A week or two ago I was walking with Jack in his newly inherited single jogging stroller. Yes, you read correctly - walking, I'm not much of a runner. On the way this sweet old 70 something year old lady stops me to admire Jack. "Look at his hair!" "How old is he?" "What is his name?" She was having a great time with Jack. Then she looks at me and says, "Isn't this contraption supposed to be something you run with?" Hmmmm....something I would expect from someone in the North East. Which one is it lady - are you 'sweet and nice old lady' or 'rough around the edges, I'll tell you what I think' old lady?
We've entered for the first time into the Public School system here in Santa Fe. There are days that I think I should home-school. I asked the secretary in Alex's preschool the other day: "Who is Alex's speech therapist?" Response: "The teacher doesn't know??" (with a blank stare). The teacher is teaching at the moment. Did not get any further in extracting information.
Met a lady who was, for a week, Maya's teacher - such a sweet lady. First informal meet the teacher time she informs us parents that she doesn't take calls after school hours because she's a pastor's wife. I never heard that one before. Chris asks me: "Did you tell her you were a pastor's wife too?" "Nope, one pastor's wife was enough."
Just makes you laugh because you're constantly faced with the unexpected. Can't can these folks, they don't fit any mold. They are nice and rude, gracious and terrible drivers, mind their own business and want to know all about yours kind of people. Chris was totally shocked this morning when a pick-up truck makes a U-turn right over the median in the middle of a busy road - I guess he just couldn't wait....and that's just Santa Fe - home of the Weird.
What's wonderful about all these weirdos is that they are so much like us - made in the image of God, marred by the Fall, and in need of redemption and restoration. What a wonderful place to be in! We're very thankful to be here and see God's clear hand in changing this city for His glory.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
Moving Day
Today we move into our 'new' house. New to us of course. We are excited to have a place to call 'home' and a place to put all our stuff.
I've discovered though that it wasn't so hard living out of a couple of suitcases (literally) for a month. We have all the necessities and just recycle clothes over and over again. Really, we don't need much. It seems to me that this Gensheer clan values space much more than stuff. What we value shone through though our house search. We wanted the kids to have space to be on their own if they wanted to. A big dining room table so we could eat with people. An extra room so we could have people sleep over. A easily accessible bathroom so our guests can use it. Outdoor space so we can grill out and feed people when they come over. "We don't have enough seating!" cried Chris. "Where are people going to sit?" We still don't have an answer to that question - Chris is particularly been coveting some leather chairs from Pottery Barn and I told him he might have to wait a WHILE for those.
What is encouraging when we step back and look at this process is that we are really doing what God has called us to do. It's not just a personality outgoing thing or a duty thing, it's a delight thing to be able to give of ourselves to eternal souls. Chris has LOVED every minute of his job and is so full of energy when he gets to pastor people. All those student loans were not in vain after all!
Yesterday I found out I won't be able to use the garage as a playroom because of mice - very bummed. But the Lord knew that, right? Which means, he'll provide space elsewhere (fingers crossed). I think having a couple of interior decorators stop by today will be a huge help in helping us place stuff. I think I'm having a love/hate relationship with perspective - it keeps me sane on one hand but poses such a threat to deadening my heart on the other. I'm really dissappointed about the garage and that's ok. I just don't want to stay there forever. I heard a friend once say, "You can let birds fly over your head, just don't let them make a nest in your hair."
People here have been sooooo generous and kind - someone gave us $500 because they thought 'we might need it'! YES WE DO! We're spending it today to pay for a used washer/dryer. Praise the Lord I won't have to go to the laundromat with 3 kids - I just had visions of Alex 'helping' Jack into the dryer! Someone gave us Perler Beads that have provided hours of entertainment for Maya. Someone is giving us some outdoor toys for Jack. Another person is giving us a kids table and a BUNCH of Legos for Alex. Someone sold me some Playmobils for the kids at a ridicoulous price. Someone has taken us out to lunch, someone has invited us over for dinner, someone has given us free ice-cream coupons, someone has let us stay in their house for almost a month and eat their food, someone is giving us a fireplace screen....we are SO thankful that the Lord has brought the 'someones' into our lives. May we be a blessing to others as we have been blessed by them.
I've discovered though that it wasn't so hard living out of a couple of suitcases (literally) for a month. We have all the necessities and just recycle clothes over and over again. Really, we don't need much. It seems to me that this Gensheer clan values space much more than stuff. What we value shone through though our house search. We wanted the kids to have space to be on their own if they wanted to. A big dining room table so we could eat with people. An extra room so we could have people sleep over. A easily accessible bathroom so our guests can use it. Outdoor space so we can grill out and feed people when they come over. "We don't have enough seating!" cried Chris. "Where are people going to sit?" We still don't have an answer to that question - Chris is particularly been coveting some leather chairs from Pottery Barn and I told him he might have to wait a WHILE for those.
What is encouraging when we step back and look at this process is that we are really doing what God has called us to do. It's not just a personality outgoing thing or a duty thing, it's a delight thing to be able to give of ourselves to eternal souls. Chris has LOVED every minute of his job and is so full of energy when he gets to pastor people. All those student loans were not in vain after all!
Yesterday I found out I won't be able to use the garage as a playroom because of mice - very bummed. But the Lord knew that, right? Which means, he'll provide space elsewhere (fingers crossed). I think having a couple of interior decorators stop by today will be a huge help in helping us place stuff. I think I'm having a love/hate relationship with perspective - it keeps me sane on one hand but poses such a threat to deadening my heart on the other. I'm really dissappointed about the garage and that's ok. I just don't want to stay there forever. I heard a friend once say, "You can let birds fly over your head, just don't let them make a nest in your hair."
People here have been sooooo generous and kind - someone gave us $500 because they thought 'we might need it'! YES WE DO! We're spending it today to pay for a used washer/dryer. Praise the Lord I won't have to go to the laundromat with 3 kids - I just had visions of Alex 'helping' Jack into the dryer! Someone gave us Perler Beads that have provided hours of entertainment for Maya. Someone is giving us some outdoor toys for Jack. Another person is giving us a kids table and a BUNCH of Legos for Alex. Someone sold me some Playmobils for the kids at a ridicoulous price. Someone has taken us out to lunch, someone has invited us over for dinner, someone has given us free ice-cream coupons, someone has let us stay in their house for almost a month and eat their food, someone is giving us a fireplace screen....we are SO thankful that the Lord has brought the 'someones' into our lives. May we be a blessing to others as we have been blessed by them.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
New Life in Santa Fe, NM
I don't think I ever thought of New Mexico as a place where I would come to live. And yet, the river of God's providence has led us here. I have to admit that I had lots of prejudices thinking about Santa Fe - I thought there was no grass, no brick, and just ugly desert all around. What I have found instead is a different kind of beauty - surrounded by hills on all sides, nestled in their arms lies this strange little town, brown all around with a few spots of color here and there, a town that is completely unique, strange, and yet in it's own way captivating. The sunset God paints here is one of a masterful artist with colors melting into one another, leaving the one watching helpless but to stare in wonder.
In the midst of this uniqueness and beauty we find ourselves homeless and in search for a house for our family. The kids are tired and in need of a schedule, our stuff is on a truck somewhere between here and St. Louis and we're learning to trust that God's providence never abandons us even when we don't see the next step. All we need is Him, and having but the clothes on our backs (and a few spares in a suitcase!) that is becoming the rubber that meets the road. We feel like Abraham who left all that he knew to be a sojourner in a country not his own and not knowing where he was going. We are encouraged because God led Abraham and continued to reveal Himself and pour out blessings on him. We are encouraged because God's character is steady and trustworthy.
In the midst of this uniqueness and beauty we find ourselves homeless and in search for a house for our family. The kids are tired and in need of a schedule, our stuff is on a truck somewhere between here and St. Louis and we're learning to trust that God's providence never abandons us even when we don't see the next step. All we need is Him, and having but the clothes on our backs (and a few spares in a suitcase!) that is becoming the rubber that meets the road. We feel like Abraham who left all that he knew to be a sojourner in a country not his own and not knowing where he was going. We are encouraged because God led Abraham and continued to reveal Himself and pour out blessings on him. We are encouraged because God's character is steady and trustworthy.
Friday, July 17, 2009
San Diego Adventures
Since we've been in San Diego we've marveled a lot -
at the palm trees growing in the middle of desert bushes
at how quickly our children adjust to new places
at the beauty of the Pacific ocean
at how cold that same ocean is
at the "Pirate Ship" at the Marina that Alex wants to claim his very own
at the dropped jaw of Maya and Alex as they watch Shamu the killer whale make a jump
at the huge kites at Seaport Village
at Jack's giggles as his feet splash in the water for the first time
at the great (did I say great!) food at J Wok
at how nothing beats riding a tractor or a pony...or just the fun you can have on a farm!
at new friendships
at missing old friendships
at God's gracious providence
at how I really, really need my right thumb (yeah, well, I thought I didn't till I couldn't use it any more for a while due to an injury....what can I say, I learn the hard way and Chris usually gets to say, "I told you so!".....
and at how quickly time goes by.
Indeed we are "but a breath" like the Psalms have told me over and over again. But our moments here in San Diego will be like the rocks and seashells we've collected on it's beaches - beautiful, meaningful, and worth taking along with us.
Next stop: Augusta, GA! The main attraction there per our kids - THE DOGS - Titus and Gilmore! Alex wants to "wrestle with Titus".....we'll keep you posted on how that one goes....
at the palm trees growing in the middle of desert bushes
at how quickly our children adjust to new places
at the beauty of the Pacific ocean
at how cold that same ocean is
at the "Pirate Ship" at the Marina that Alex wants to claim his very own
at the dropped jaw of Maya and Alex as they watch Shamu the killer whale make a jump
at the huge kites at Seaport Village
at Jack's giggles as his feet splash in the water for the first time
at the great (did I say great!) food at J Wok
at how nothing beats riding a tractor or a pony...or just the fun you can have on a farm!
at new friendships
at missing old friendships
at God's gracious providence
at how I really, really need my right thumb (yeah, well, I thought I didn't till I couldn't use it any more for a while due to an injury....what can I say, I learn the hard way and Chris usually gets to say, "I told you so!".....
and at how quickly time goes by.
Indeed we are "but a breath" like the Psalms have told me over and over again. But our moments here in San Diego will be like the rocks and seashells we've collected on it's beaches - beautiful, meaningful, and worth taking along with us.
Next stop: Augusta, GA! The main attraction there per our kids - THE DOGS - Titus and Gilmore! Alex wants to "wrestle with Titus".....we'll keep you posted on how that one goes....
Friday, May 8, 2009
A cork on the river of God's Providence
There are those moments every so often that all of us get an ache that if we don't distract ourselves quickly will become quite painful. The ache questions and doubts and wanders....
Did I make the right decisions? What would my life look like if I had just taken that turn instead of the one I chose? Would it have made a difference?
One can be left to count their mistakes, thinking of what the 'other life' might have been...
Those moments for me are not an issue of contentment but an issue of homesickness and longing: longing to sit by the edge of the Adriatic and look out at a sunset, the longing to walk the streets of Rovinj in the mid-afternoon bustle, the longing to have coffee at a bar overlooking fishermen coming back from a night's work or cleaning their nets as the sun slowly creeps up on my face, the longing to be there for important events in my family's lives, the longing to enjoy a good Istrian pizza bite by bite, the longing to laugh with old friends...
Longings - how good of God to give us this little ache that reminds us that we were not made for this world, but that our true home is yet awaiting us. In the meantime, the way I've come to look at my life is what a friend called "A cork on the river of God's Providence." It might take unexpected turns and where we would have turned right it turned us left, but His good and loving hand always guides, always protects, always blesses.
I look around me and I see an amazing husband who loves me and thinks I'm amazing despite of all my shortcomings, 3 children who make me laugh more than ever before and bring constant joy to my heart, a community of friends and family who are committed to help me grow and learn and who are with me no matter what, and a God whose presence never leaves me.
In my melancholy moments though as I learn to let the river of God's Providence lead me, Oliver Dragojevic always knows how to minister to my heart :)
Did I make the right decisions? What would my life look like if I had just taken that turn instead of the one I chose? Would it have made a difference?
One can be left to count their mistakes, thinking of what the 'other life' might have been...
Those moments for me are not an issue of contentment but an issue of homesickness and longing: longing to sit by the edge of the Adriatic and look out at a sunset, the longing to walk the streets of Rovinj in the mid-afternoon bustle, the longing to have coffee at a bar overlooking fishermen coming back from a night's work or cleaning their nets as the sun slowly creeps up on my face, the longing to be there for important events in my family's lives, the longing to enjoy a good Istrian pizza bite by bite, the longing to laugh with old friends...
Longings - how good of God to give us this little ache that reminds us that we were not made for this world, but that our true home is yet awaiting us. In the meantime, the way I've come to look at my life is what a friend called "A cork on the river of God's Providence." It might take unexpected turns and where we would have turned right it turned us left, but His good and loving hand always guides, always protects, always blesses.
I look around me and I see an amazing husband who loves me and thinks I'm amazing despite of all my shortcomings, 3 children who make me laugh more than ever before and bring constant joy to my heart, a community of friends and family who are committed to help me grow and learn and who are with me no matter what, and a God whose presence never leaves me.
In my melancholy moments though as I learn to let the river of God's Providence lead me, Oliver Dragojevic always knows how to minister to my heart :)
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Always learning.....patience
How does 45 minutes on hold sound? How about twice in one day? How about nothing is acomplished after all the holding??? It seems that customer service is a thing of yesterday and has been replaced with mediocre music and enthusiastic voices not telling you really why you should remain on the line, even though your call is important to them and it might be recorded for quality assurance purposes....well, I guess if there was a conversation to be recorded that would be possible, but alas!
So as I have spent all my free time today on hold, I have (yet again) a choice to make: will I be angry and in my imaginary world have a confrontation with whoever should be answering my call, or do I consider it a gift from the Lord and a chance to think, pray, collect my thoughts or just let my brain rest??? I confess that the former comes naturally and the latter is quite a challenge. I'd love to have patience enough to be aware of life's fleeting little moments that could count but I squander them in worry, anger, busyness. Good news is: I keep learning...sometimes is the same lesson over and over again, but I'm thankful that growth comes a bit at the time.
Speaking of growth, Jack is 6 weeks old now and a full 10 lbs. 4 oz. and doing well. I say doing well as he's been crying and unable to settle for the past 3 hours...another lesson in patience maybe????
So as I have spent all my free time today on hold, I have (yet again) a choice to make: will I be angry and in my imaginary world have a confrontation with whoever should be answering my call, or do I consider it a gift from the Lord and a chance to think, pray, collect my thoughts or just let my brain rest??? I confess that the former comes naturally and the latter is quite a challenge. I'd love to have patience enough to be aware of life's fleeting little moments that could count but I squander them in worry, anger, busyness. Good news is: I keep learning...sometimes is the same lesson over and over again, but I'm thankful that growth comes a bit at the time.
Speaking of growth, Jack is 6 weeks old now and a full 10 lbs. 4 oz. and doing well. I say doing well as he's been crying and unable to settle for the past 3 hours...another lesson in patience maybe????
Monday, December 15, 2008
In Memoriam...
It was a winter storm here in St. Louis that was nowhere close to an end. What should have been a pleasant surprise of snow was a shocking surprise of loss. It's been a year since we got in the car and went to the ER only to have the suspicion confirmed - our little baby was gone.
What do you feel when you lose someone you've never met? Are you sad? Angry? Ambivalent? Do you try to imagine what they would have looked like or what their personality would be? Or do you nonchalantly declare like our nurse in the ER did that it happens all the time and some fetuses just pass through? I guess it depends on what you believe. We believe that life begins at conception, so to us a little one was taken from us in a moment. We would never get to see the face, enjoy the smiles, be amazed at the beauty of this little life. We would never get to hold her, to comfort her, to laugh with her. So we cried as we thought of the profound loss we were facing. And yet we weren't grieving without hope. We trust God that He is good and His Word is true. We believe that one day we will see her face, and hold her in our arms, and enjoy her forever. Until that day we remember her and still grieve never getting to know her on this earth.
We thought she was a girl so we named her Elena. Until the day when we'll be reunited we remember that the Lord gives and the Lord takes away...blessed be the name of the Lord!
What do you feel when you lose someone you've never met? Are you sad? Angry? Ambivalent? Do you try to imagine what they would have looked like or what their personality would be? Or do you nonchalantly declare like our nurse in the ER did that it happens all the time and some fetuses just pass through? I guess it depends on what you believe. We believe that life begins at conception, so to us a little one was taken from us in a moment. We would never get to see the face, enjoy the smiles, be amazed at the beauty of this little life. We would never get to hold her, to comfort her, to laugh with her. So we cried as we thought of the profound loss we were facing. And yet we weren't grieving without hope. We trust God that He is good and His Word is true. We believe that one day we will see her face, and hold her in our arms, and enjoy her forever. Until that day we remember her and still grieve never getting to know her on this earth.
We thought she was a girl so we named her Elena. Until the day when we'll be reunited we remember that the Lord gives and the Lord takes away...blessed be the name of the Lord!
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